THE GREAT (It’s a big call but possibly the greatest year of my life)

1. 3 new Park Runs – COMPLETED (DID 11!!!!)
2. ½ marathon – COMPLETED
3. Jump out of a plane – COMPLETED
4. Save $3,000 – COMPLETED
5. 2 coaching sessions a week – ½ done (got to 50 sessions)
6. Earn $3,000 from coaching – NO (tested 15 mins coaching for free)
7. Holiday somewhere new – COMPLETED (Singapore is amazing)
8. Weekly relationship meeting/goals – ½ COMPLETED  (Did 5 Love Language, some of Couple Skills book, wrote some goals & started couples counselling)
9. Monthly fiction book, non fiction and movie – COMPLETED
10. Singing course – COMPLETED (scariest thing I’ve ever done)
11. Running or other course – COMPLETED (joined Woodstock)
12. Tony Robbins – COMPLETED
13. Start book club – NO (started the process but don’t think it’s a goal I wanted enough)
14. Do something scary once a week – COMPLETED
15. Sell APVC for $5,000 plus fee – COMPLETED
16. 4 weeks $10pd spending challenge – COMPLETED

A TOTAL OF 13/16 GOALS COMPLETED. I am ecstatic with my achievements!!!!! Without these goals written on my wall I can’t imagine I would’ve done these. I wouldn’t have had the commitment, dedication or drive. Seeing it everyday is motivating.

And for the couple I didn’t achieve I think good lessons were learnt and that’s all that matters. Plus I did so many other unplanned things – incredible!!!!!

Other achievements:

• Trapeze
• Went to TedX
• Got to my 50^th Park Run
• Walked on hot coals
• Booked Tony Robbin’s Life University
• Launched 15 min express coaching
• Got business cards
• Got a nofearfromhere tshirt
• Rode a camel
• Became a 6am person
• Met boyfriend’s parents
• Recorded me singing a song and played it for boyfriend
• 2 x gum surgery
• Random speech to the leadership team at work
• Suspension bridge in Singapore
• Lingerie photos
• Psychologist
• Abandoned pitch black train tunnel walk
• Sent an entry for a writing competition
• Swimming in the ocean without glasses
• First ukulele lesson in front of people that matter

THE BAD

I had some really dark difficult times. A good month or 2 of being sick and feeling it was all too hard and wondering what the point was. Maybe a bit of a come down after the half marathon and then having no new goal to work towards. And no idea what I wanted to do. Possibly a bit of winter struggling. There were a few days of being suicidal. I find if I just go with the bad days and accept them, sleep a lot and don’t try to fix them they seem to go away slowly but surely. I let myself watch a few series on TV, eat more carbs, get more takeaway. I stop striving. I know they say to move, it’s the best thing for depression but I didn’t have the energy. I was my own worst enemy not accepting help. And even that’s ok. Don’t beat yourself up. And of course I eventually booked into the psychologist and she made such a big difference. So I had lots of great learnings – especially around people and connection. I think these are going to help so much more over the coming years – letting people in a little more during the bad stuff. And Tony Robbins was also perfect timing to get much more focussed on the future and positive about what’s possible for all of us. Not to dwell on the past. It lifted me up and gave me belief in my ability to create something better for myself.

THE LEARNINGS

I don’t think life is ever rosy ALL the time for anyone. Maybe we need to talk about this more often. Maybe we need to accept it more lovingly that it is going to happen from time to time. Not try to fight it and feel like a failure. But just feel like a part of something that we are all in this thing together. And with thanks to Brene Brown that we are being ‘imperfectly perfect’.

I feel everyone I follow on social media is saying this so it feels like a cop out. But maybe there is some truth in the idea that the bad stuff can facilitate the good stuff. Maybe it helps us learn about ourselves more to continue on the journey of becoming who we want to be. Maybe it’s the bad stuff that is really the important stuff? Maybe dealing with this makes us the best versions of ourselves, rather than the actions towards the good things? Interesting to ponder.

Maybe 2019 for me isn’t about running a full marathon. Maybe the more important lessons will be with how I deal with things on the down days. Maybe that’s what truly matters.

So the best of years. And I guess the worst of years. I’m still a little stunned at how much I managed to achieve. It feels fantastic. Looking at my whiteboard fills my heart with joy and pride. And with so much hope that anything is possible. Small baby steps to amazing lives. To being who we want to be. And living the life we want to live.

Congratulations on 2018. For all the great things you should be acknowledging yourself for. For the lessons learnt. And for stepping up again to 2019!

Be kind to yourself.

Wxx